flengabsolution

she said..

2005-06-25T20:24:00.000+08:00

yeah..

and another twiggy.

2005-06-11T18:44:00.000+08:00

done another one.. kinda like a profile.. but im not getting the ease or enjoyment in drawing as i get frustrated that most of the time my anatomy is just fucked up.. the cause? i havent been practising drawing for quite sometime.. and this is the retribution. argh. bigger pic.. click picture.

yeah..uh

another twiggy artwork

2005-06-10T23:33:00.000+08:00

im "feeling" this character.. it could be my new mascot.. or something? woohoo.. ok anyway done it in big brush style in OC1, i had nothing to do just now, after watching the hilarious show Mr Vampire Saga4 and Stupid Behaviour caught on Tape, i sat down and did this in around 30 mins or so.. i like it lots. bigger version click the image.

regards, fleng.. again.

twiggy

2005-06-10T16:45:00.000+08:00

yeah, finally a finished piece that took me a hella long time to complete due to complication with the fucking painter9 programme, the fucking opencanvas programme and such, but finally its one of the few finished art i have done in quite awhile, not that all happy though, there are stuff that could have been done better but due to TECHNICAL problems.. i am force to suffice with this.

i am happy though with it. click on the image to enlarge

regards, fleng

i just don't know

2005-06-10T01:21:00.000+08:00

time is ticking, left 4 more months and i still have yet to think of what i'm gonna do like the year before i enroll into NTU, yes we guys do go in late.. why? because of NS .. take away 2 precious years of hour left, make us beg and be at the recieving end of the regular officers and such.. which i rightfully reminded them that i am more able to do their job than them and that i just choose not to because.. fuck what kinda pay am i getting right?

roughly gonna be less than a year im gonna be out there and i need a job..this is where the confused part comes in. i dunno what to work as. my ambition.. i have.. but prolly hard to get and maybe i think i cant fufill it on my personal part (lacking the skills and such). I know i can do this jobs of which i aim towards but that im like a one trick pony, a jack of all trades, master of none.. i think this is killing me. I have yet to understand this problem of which i been putting aside and not deal with it and rather indulge porn(whatever).

i need to kickstart a self realisation journey.. but before that i think i hear someone trying to break into my living room window.

so i emailed this today

2005-06-09T22:55:00.000+08:00

i bought a game at this bargain shop for 3 dollars and the game was so shitty it hurts the mind, so i found the email of the game's president and decided to send him an email.

At 08:55 AM 6/9/2005 -0700, you wrote:
Hey,

I've bought your company's game, Security Branch
or some shit at this local dumpster of a shop which
sells your game for a mere $3.00 SGD, which i thought
was a bargain and that it could be one of those cool
2003-ish games which whoa.. i could get a $3.00 SGD so
why not right?

So i installed it, and when i started playing the
game, honest to god truth, it was one of the most
lousiest game i have ever played which makes me think
how could activision ever published such a retarded
game and that how could your company 4d rulers ever
made such a game and even thought of selling it to the
public.

My sole reason for emailing you this is not to diss
your game(which i have and i am sorely apologizing..
but seriously its a shitty game.) but actually to
understand the magnitude and complexity of how you
guys ever came up with this kind of game. If you could
take the time to answer my question, i would be so
glad and it will make me sleep better at night too.

Regards,
fleng

and he replied within roughly 30 mins.. which is super fast.

Hey,
Your right, the game is utter crap. We had developed a state of the art
engine, which has rendering capabilities of doom3, (shipped long before
doom 3 btw) but too much time and effort went into the programming and
bugs
of a new engine technology, and the artificial intelligence was left
for
"later". Well later rolled around too late, and Activision Value sticks
by
their deadlines (which were way too tight to make a game in the first
place) and they shipped a game that wasn't even alpha by our standards.
What can you do when offered a contract when your starving? Say no or
try?
The funding was too small, and the time line too short, and the
technology
was not complete when we started developing. A few more months would
have
made a world of difference, but they were not willing to wait. There
are
still hardcore fans playing our first game Gore online, which had its
shortcomings too, but is a blast to play on the internet. In the past
our
games had come together, but this one just didn't due to not enough
time.

Joel Huenink
President, Creative Director
4D Rulers Software, Inc.
http://www.4DRulers.com
Phone: (402) 239-2493


amazing especially when it comes from the president
of the company and calling his product utter crap.
anyway the answer he replied back was valid and very
much understandable.

long leave

2005-06-08T17:48:00.000+08:00

i am a having a very long leave which i had to cleared becauseeeeee i rarely take leave? super hardworking? yeah right, i just like to compile my leave and then take them all at once, muakakaka.. but fuck my pay kena cut.. nevermind lor.

alley way of singapore - old turning new.

2005-06-07T12:37:00.000+08:00

For full views visit here

Violent Pornography

2005-06-02T18:47:00.000+08:00

Last night at, some of them came over to where i am and one of them opened up the MeatHole series in my Notebook, of which consist degrading violent pornography.

About 7 people were there, all were watching. Somehow its still does not qualify to be a "get together porn" or "party viewing" kinda stuff. weird.

the rest of the night is the usual shit. Some people cannot connect with what youre talking about. this kind of people are on different wavelength. what a waste.

wow i drew..

2005-06-01T00:25:00.000+08:00

after many months of not drawig..on Open Canvas.. with the tablet.

click image for full view on my devart gallery.

Procrastination.. is evil

2005-05-31T22:33:00.000+08:00

its coming to about 5 or isit 4 months left till i officially get the fuck out of this NS, but before that i have to get ready my portfolio and such.. of which i havent done.

at first i gave myself 6 mths to get started on it.. and now im a month late and i dont feel like doing it however i force myself.. you know that kind of laziness, procrastination and the feeling that you really suck.

besides that i am feel downright uncreative, it happens ever since i entered NS, it screwed with my mind somehow or maybe i don't feel the passion no more.. i need some soul searching to do.

right now im at a loss, what the hell do i really want to do after i finish the national slavery? i don' have a fix on anything good in mind to do. im really at a loss, be it my professional life and my personal life. life is so stagnant and mundane, i starting to pull my hair.. of which i think is thinning since i entered the age of 21ish..

right after i write this, i gonna feel the same usual pathetic apathy needing whining ass bitch that is me. fuck me. argh.

15 minutes till work.

2005-05-30T17:47:00.000+08:00

My hair is too thick and long for work, even my goatee.. havent shaved it for 3 days.. maybe i can get away with it. lets see. i need a haircut.

Brendon's wedding dinner

2005-05-29T23:34:00.000+08:00

Had a blast of a time at one of my collegues wedding dinner held at M Hotel in the heart on Tanjong Pagar CBD area. Here are some pics.

or go here

i got nothing..

2005-05-28T11:38:00.000+08:00

nothing absolutely to talk about.

i'm close behind..

2005-05-26T15:31:00.000+08:00

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find
You and I collide

I'm quiet you know
You make a frist impression
I've found I'm scared to know I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
I somehow find
You and I collide

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to ryhme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find
You and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide